Just let me complain for a minute. k?

basically boys suck.
Big time.

January 2011, my Stake President gives me the advice to get married because serving a mission for the LDS church is not available to me. I am bitter about it for 2 weeks to a month. In that time I got a blessing from my bishop and he said that I should keep my eyes open for a relationship but not all other doors are closed to me. And I talk to my dad. He says that I should at least take dating more seriously.

So I humble myself. They are right after all. I haven't taken a relationship seriously since... ever. I worked on it and worked on it. And worked on it some more and I think that I am getting pretty good at it.

I opened my mind and heart to several men along the way. But Karma is real and it is a brat. BIG TIME! The first I was interested in getting to know better decided that he was confused about an ex-fiance. whoopie! He went back to her eventually, but he told me tonight that they are really over.. yeah right. So I kept my eyes open and found someone else. Him and I hung out pretty constantly for 2 months or so and I really liked him a lot. It was coming to the point when I would need to decide to date him or not (with both these guys there was always one other person on the side-old habits) I would have dated him but then one day he comes over and he says that he met someone in vegas 2 weeks before. Suck. But earlier that same night someone else entered my life again wanting to try dating again cuz he and his ex-girlfriend were done for reals.

I really saw potential with this guy. He is super sweet, but not sappy. Funny and fun, likes the same kind of music, create, athletic, spiritual, attractive. And he seemed to really like me back. But then he took his ex out on a date and told me about it (my roommate happened to be at the same restaurant with them) i was not comfortable with that. "but we are just friends" BS. that's all I have to say about that. Potential down the drain. We're moving to the same apt complex in the fall and it's a good thing i purposefully didn't move into his ward.

Why can't life just work out. Why can't boys be less dumb. I am tired of these games i just want to move on with my life and it's not working. So I am formally telling any guys that i mistreated that i am sorry and i hope you forgive me. Maybe karma will be on myside after this.

15. My Dreams

Dreams.
There are several ways that someone could take that.
Night dreams, big dreams (fantasies), planned dreams, and perfect dreams.

The first are the ones that everyone supposedly has every night but rarely remembers. I can only remember a handful as far back as I can remember and they usually had to do with marriage or dinosaurs. Yeah I am a weirdo, but you like it. I guess I only remember the ones that are emotional and traumatic. (I could never watch jurassic park as a child and when I dreamed about them I could never get back to sleep for a long time) Even though they are few and far between I am glad that I remember some of what my subconscious thinks about when my brain is off.

The second, big dreams, are ones that you always plan on accomplishing, like sky diving, which I will do someday. I am ridiculously scared of heights but I love the thrill of being scared. Last week dre, sav, and I went with some other friends to Knott's Berry Farm and I can go on any ride no big deal EXCEPT for the ones that take you up and then drop you... Those are terrifying.

Then we have planned dreams like what I want to do when I grow up. Up until recently I was not sure what I wanted to do. I had a dream plan and then that went down the drain so I have been working on another for the last few months and I think that I have finally figured out what that is. I am going back to beauty school :). I feel really good about this decision and the Brousseaus said that they would work with me so that I would still be able to work for them while going back to school. That should take me 6 months to a year to finish and then I would like to go back to school to get my bachelors in... something. I just want one really. I also would like to be certified in being a zumba instructor. I think that that is actually want I want to do with my life. I won't get into my planned dreams with boy except that I have been working on dating more seriously and it is super frustrating. Karma is a brat. That's all I got to say about that. BUT I would really like to find a relationship sometime in the near future.

And last we have our perfect dreams, ones where we see ourselves in the perfect. They represent the ideal in this life, angelic children, health and wealth, the perfect husband, ect. I guess mine includes a big house that is decorated to invite the spirit into my home. 7 wonderful children that bring me so much joy. A loving husband that is there for me always and forever and still likes to have adventures and makes me laugh. I still stay in contact with my best friends from high school and college. Living in Az close to my family would be nice because I sure to miss them quite a bit. A huge part of my perfect dream would be that I am sealed to my family and we are all working towards becoming more like Christ so that we can all make it to the celestial kingdom.. that actually applies to all my family. I love you guys

Dream big everyone. Because even if you miss the magical castles in the sky you will still land among the stars.

14. What you wore today.

Well let me just tell you I looked freaking cute today. I went shopping yesterday with emma cuz I really wanted some new jeans... I had to go up a size. It sucks getting old. But today I wore a gray tube top, knee length dress, black cardigan, and my gray and black star vans, chill but fun. When I got home from work I changed again into my new dark denim jeans, a black and purple floral tank, purple cardigan, and same shoes as before.

Yeah i know that was exciting to read..

I also cut my hair today... well really all i did was style it so that I felt cuter wearing it short. I like it now.

13. Your Week

I am almost half way there then I can blog about something else!! whoo hoo!! lol I am excited!

So this week is pretty nomal

Monday- got back from Cali at 5am. Went to bed and then woke up at 830 to get to work. I worked with the kids all day and then went to dance at 7-9. It was a lot better this week than past ones (we actually worked on our dances) When I got home Tommy came to pick me up and we went back to his place to watch a movie but really we fell asleep on the love sac.

Tuesday- Work with the kids until 5 and then I worked at fatcats from 630-1030. It was a short shift tonight. Nothing that interested happened there.

Wednesday- Work at the Brousseaus, came home and got ready for my date with Patrick. We went to a pizza place for dinner, and then a place where you paint plates, cups, bowls, ect. I just got back from that. It was a lot of fun.

Thursday- Work at the Brousseau's. Then I work at fatcats from 6-11.

Friday- Work at the Brousseau's. as of right now I do not have plans for Friday night.

Saturday- Work from 10am -8pm at fatcats. Making the big bucks :)

Yes I know I work a lot. I should probably find more time to build relationships with those around me.

12. What's in your bag

Let me just say. I hate purses but since clothing designers insist on making girls pants tight with small pockets there is not much choice as to carrying them because we need our wallets (which are HUGE), our phones (which are getting bigger), house keys cuz roommates lock the door, and of course lip gloss... can you image all that in those tini tiny girl pants. Yeah not gonna happen.

I will say that my purse does hold a lot of special things for me. Right now the list of things contained in my bag of secrets is

wallet (2 credit cards, 1 debit card, and $6)
make up bag.
face lotion.
finger nail clippers
several needles in the lining that I can't get out
a purple pair of sunglasses
hair extensions
comb
gum
keys
lots of change
1 pen
deck of cards
2 hair ties
4 lip glosses
and 2 pairs of panties :)

i get ready at work, i hope that explains some of the random stuff ha ha

11. My Siblings.

Well this might take a while since I have several siblings....like 8 of them. They are all wonderful in their own unique and individual way. They are my best friends and I love them so much.

DAWN

Dawn is my oldest sibling. She has been an example to me from the beginning. (Sometimes I decided to make my own mistakes though... bad choice on my part) She has always been so beautiful and she is Super stylish. She is a wonderful cook... I've never had anything at her house that I didn't like. She hates animals, I think that I learned that from her. She has 5 wonderful children who are so talented and a husband that loves her so much. She is so spiritually strong and has a wonderful testimony. I go to her for advice about a lot of things. She is such a strength to me. Dawn is always there for me and once let me live at her house for a month. But seriously, she has the most comfy couches.

Rachael

She is the hardest worker that I have every known. She is so giving with everything that she has, her time, cars, things, money. I think that I have spent more time with Rachael than I have any other sibling. She taught me how to cook and how to sew. She was the one that taught me the piano (she is an amazing pianist.) She works a lot and gives many people in my family jobs. She loves to go riding and to spend time with her family. She has 2 very smart children. Rachael can build anything if you just draw it for her so some might say that she is a tomboy but she knows how to get dressed up and party. Well really she can pretty much do anything. She is like the jack of all trades.

ADAM

Adam-chick as my father likes to call him... I'm not really sure why though. He is a ladies man. As far back as I can remember all the girls always wanted him. He is always trying new things to make money, one had to do with computers, another some kind of plant ;)... and there are soo many more. He is obsessed with riding and he is really good at it. He will help anyone with their cars. He tries to act all hard and tough but I know that he has one of the sweetest hearts in the family. He loves everyone and tries to show them that. He as 2 children, and well they are a little crazy, they are a crack up, especially that Elexa. He also loves Mountain Dew. It's pretty much all that he drinks.

KATT

She is the party animal of the group. If I was every looking for someone to have some fun with I would probably call her. She is probably the strongest in the family and can face any challenge that comes her way. She won't put up with crap from anyone. She is the craziest with her styles and does whatever she wants. She LOVES little bows and wears them often. She has a loving son that is always super excited to see me and a fat baby... like a sumo wrestler. She is great.

AND this is were I am inserted but I talk about me a lot so we'll skip that.

PAUL

He is so talented. He is so giving with him time and his talents. He went to school for collision repair and he is FANTASTIC at it. He is super creative and can do pretty much anything. He is really good at BMX street style. I don't know if it is actually called something. I was always so impressed with the tricks that he is capable of. Actually he is just good at anything he tries really that's trick stuff, like off walls, on trampolines, bikes, motocyles, maybe he is just super crazy and doesn't care if he breaks something but I admire him so much for being so fearless.

EMILEE

She is the sweet on in the family. She cares so much for everyone and their needs. She gives so much of her time to serve those around her and make sure that they are happy. She is much more in tune to people's feeling and tries hard not to hurt others. She is a wonderful singer and I expect to see her as an LDS artist one day or in the MOTAB choir. Yeah she is that good. She is a really good actress and fantastic at accents. "Roll your windows up it's cold outside!!" imagine that in a chinese accent... HILARIOUS. She is really good at car dancing.

BEN

Probably the most street smart of us all. For some reason he always has the weirdest things in his possession. He can get a genius to trade him a sports care for a toy car. I'm not sure how but he can. He loves new technology. He always seems to have the latest thing, i'm not sure how but I sure do wish I had that skill. He is really good at computer games and he is always on facebook when I am visiting.

JULIA

She is the baby of the family. I remember when she was born and she was the cutest baby ever. Now she is a young woman and it weirds me out. She loves to read and she is really good with the nieces and nephews. She is just like my mom. She is a wonderful help to my mom and does everything that she can for her. She is really loving and loves to hug.


There are many of you that share qualities but I just pointed out the one that most describes you. The thing about families is that sometimes we butt heads and fight but just forgive because you are gonna be a family forever and we need each other. We may have way different personalities but they compliment each other well and they each bring something new and exciting to the table. I love my family with all my heart and I miss them terribly.

10. What you wore today.

Well this is a lame one.

I wore some clothes that for sure :)

Jeans, an aeropostal shirt, and tennis shoes. That's what I usually wear to work at the Brousseau's though. I have a lot of aeropostal shirts now because they are so cheap and I have stained several of my nicer shirts from the kids.

Well that was a super exciting one. :P

9. My Beliefs

I am going to finish what I started!!

My beliefs.
I feel that beliefs come from experiences that we are blessed with and knowledge that we have sought out. Not everyone has the same beliefs because of this reason but we do all believe something.

I have a testimony of Jesus Christ, of the truthfulness of his gospel, and of the love of God for his children

I believe the Book of Mormon to be the word of God that compliments and restates the teachings taught in the Bible.

I believe that through the Atonement all things can be resolved and we can grow towards perfection.

I believe that you have some control over who you fall in love with.

I believe that music can uplift you or it can bring you down.

I believe that knowledge is power and that we must study and learn all that we can.

I believe that families can be together forever.

I believe that parents should be your heros and your siblings should be your best friends.

I believe that we are blessed with talents to enrich the lives and serve others with.

I believe that we are faced with challenges so that we can be stronger from them.

I believe in the power of pray and that God really does hear and answer them.

I believe that we make our own happiness.

I believe in 2nd chances and that people can change.

I KNOW that my Redeemer lives.