A Moment.
Any Moment?
There are so many moments to choose from in life.....
I was still attending Eastern Arizona, sitting in institute when a thought came to mind, "I should move to Utah." ridiculous huh?! There was nothing for me in Utah. I didn't have any friends there, I couldn't go to school, I didn't have a job, none of my family was there. There was nothing for me in Utah. So I ignored it.
A few months later I had the same thought, "I should move to Utah." I gave it a little more thought this time. The summer was coming and it seemed like a grand idea to move there for the summer and see how it went. So I started looking for places to live, called a few places to ask them questions, started looking for a job. And them I chickened out. I wanted to badly to be around for Eastern Arizona's dance concert that they were supposed to have that October. So I stayed and planned on going back there after the summer.
I spent the summer with my family and it was wonderful. Then it was time for me to go back to school. I was leaving on Thursday and the Sunday before my mom suggested that I prayed about it once more before I leave. So I did, and I felt fine about it. Thursday I was packing my car to leave and every box I took out to my AWESOME '83 Volvo (man I miss that car) I would think "Don't move there." "You're gonna be miserable." "You should have listened and moved to Utah." It was awful. And the thoughts were right. It was the worst, most unproductive semester I ever had.
I decided at that point that there was probably more to this thought than just random thinking on my part. So I planned on moving to Utah and it worked out wonderfully. I was able to move in with Savanna because her roommate, Kortney, was getting married. I haven't been so happy than I have been here. I know that this is where I am supposed to be. At times when I doubt a little, I am reassured by a simple feeling or thought letting me know that I am where I am supposed to be, doing what I need to be doing. I love those moments. They are the best.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
7. My Best Friend
Best Friends. It's not something that I call everyone. Actually I call most people acquaintances. :) I have friends, people that come over and hang out for a while, but a best friend. They are something special and hard to come by in many cases. I have been fortunate to be blessed with several. Just being born into my family I was blessed with 5...
#1. My wonderful sisters. I think that I have been in a fight or argument with almost every one of them but that is what makes them great. We forgive each other and then we are good again. People say that you are always family but that does not mean that you are always friends. My sisters are people that I can turn to for anything. They are so smart and helping in every aspect of their lives. I will talk more about each of them with I talk about my siblings.
#2. My Current roommates. They are such good examples to me of spiritually strong women. They set such a high standard to live up to and they reach down and help me up to it. I think that that is an important attribute of a best friend. They will accept you for who you are but they expect the best out of you and will do anything they can to help you achieve that. I am so grateful that I have had the opportunity to live and get to know them better. They have changed me for good.
#3. Amanda Howard. We met when I was 18 and she was 24. It was love at first sight... :) We were in the same english class and one day we decided to hang out. We realized that we had a lot in common and from their our friendship blossomed. While her and I did not get to spend a lot of time actually together, we didn't need that. Once we are together it's like we were never apart. I was the maid of honor at her wedding and now she has a little bun in the over. I'm so excited for her!!
#4. Emma Johnson. We hung out every day during high school. We had so much in common and yet so little. She is an amazing woman. Emma always knew where she was going in life, always had her head on straight but she was so HILARIOUS. We could talk for hours and still have everything to talk about. We got along so well. I miss this girl like crazy! She is also married.
And last but not least. #5. Alex Johnson. He was probably my closest best friend. He accepted me for everything that I fell short in. He loved me for all my faults and could see my potential. We fought more when we were apart than when we were together, mostly because of jealously. He was always there for him when I needed him and I tried my best to be there for him. I am afraid that I fell short on that also. We don't talk anymore but I still feel like he is one of my best friends, which is why i included him.
Thanks everyone for being such a fantastic friend. I hope that be the same for you.
#1. My wonderful sisters. I think that I have been in a fight or argument with almost every one of them but that is what makes them great. We forgive each other and then we are good again. People say that you are always family but that does not mean that you are always friends. My sisters are people that I can turn to for anything. They are so smart and helping in every aspect of their lives. I will talk more about each of them with I talk about my siblings.
#2. My Current roommates. They are such good examples to me of spiritually strong women. They set such a high standard to live up to and they reach down and help me up to it. I think that that is an important attribute of a best friend. They will accept you for who you are but they expect the best out of you and will do anything they can to help you achieve that. I am so grateful that I have had the opportunity to live and get to know them better. They have changed me for good.
#3. Amanda Howard. We met when I was 18 and she was 24. It was love at first sight... :) We were in the same english class and one day we decided to hang out. We realized that we had a lot in common and from their our friendship blossomed. While her and I did not get to spend a lot of time actually together, we didn't need that. Once we are together it's like we were never apart. I was the maid of honor at her wedding and now she has a little bun in the over. I'm so excited for her!!
#4. Emma Johnson. We hung out every day during high school. We had so much in common and yet so little. She is an amazing woman. Emma always knew where she was going in life, always had her head on straight but she was so HILARIOUS. We could talk for hours and still have everything to talk about. We got along so well. I miss this girl like crazy! She is also married.
And last but not least. #5. Alex Johnson. He was probably my closest best friend. He accepted me for everything that I fell short in. He loved me for all my faults and could see my potential. We fought more when we were apart than when we were together, mostly because of jealously. He was always there for him when I needed him and I tried my best to be there for him. I am afraid that I fell short on that also. We don't talk anymore but I still feel like he is one of my best friends, which is why i included him.
Thanks everyone for being such a fantastic friend. I hope that be the same for you.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
6. My Day
My day started out pretty normal. I went to bed at 3:30 and then when my alarm went off at 8:05 am I pushed the sleep until 8:25. (I need to be leaving at 8:25) I quickly got my stuff that I will need for my later job and go to work.
I was really tired. Gray and I played connect four for a while and Emma and I watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. Then I laid in the sun for a while because it just feels so darn good. Fed the kids lunch (Peanut butter and chocolate chip sandwich, apple, and goldfish) Put the kids down for their nap. While they were taking a nap I swept, vacuumed, did the dishes, laundry, moped, and got ready for work later. All the while I was texting Andrew. I like texting him. He's funny.
I got home from the Brousseau's at 5:40, changed my clothes and was working at Fat Cat's at 6. I was doing food tonight, although I never did get my food handlers card. Oh well. I burned a corn dog and a pizza. I haven't made food there for a while. I got off work at early, at 9:30. Mike came over, we chatted for a little, then went to his place and watched a movie. Now I am home.
Wow that makes my life sound so boring. Sorry guy's I'm tired. Goodnight! :)
I was really tired. Gray and I played connect four for a while and Emma and I watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. Then I laid in the sun for a while because it just feels so darn good. Fed the kids lunch (Peanut butter and chocolate chip sandwich, apple, and goldfish) Put the kids down for their nap. While they were taking a nap I swept, vacuumed, did the dishes, laundry, moped, and got ready for work later. All the while I was texting Andrew. I like texting him. He's funny.
I got home from the Brousseau's at 5:40, changed my clothes and was working at Fat Cat's at 6. I was doing food tonight, although I never did get my food handlers card. Oh well. I burned a corn dog and a pizza. I haven't made food there for a while. I got off work at early, at 9:30. Mike came over, we chatted for a little, then went to his place and watched a movie. Now I am home.
Wow that makes my life sound so boring. Sorry guy's I'm tired. Goodnight! :)
Thursday, March 3, 2011
5. My definition about love.
I have been dreading this day since I started this project. I've been thinking about it constantly and I have yet to figure out what I am going to say. Love is probably the hardest thing to understand, the most complicated to explain, but when you feel it you know, and then it all makes sense.
Love.
L. O. V. E.
It can not be summed up in one sentence.
Love is...
affection, adoration, passion, trouble, undeniable, insanity, madness, unpredictable, obsession, sunshine, greatest gift given, feeling of the heart that surpasses all others. It is a glance, a touch, a word. Love is eternal.
What does love do?
has power beyond this world, has power to transform, rules thought and action, ignores rational thought, burns in the heart, surpasses all other desires, neglects everything but the object of it's affection, makes 2 into 1.
Why do we love?
to feel whole, real, needed, accepted, happiness, something more powerful then ourselves. because is it an adventure, it's risky, its scary, but worth it every time.
How do we love?
We love with everything we have. Mind, body, soul. By service, kisses, compliments, gifts, dancing, singing, promises, marriage and families, forgetting ourselves. With time, walks, touches, letters, looks. We love completely.
I love how Yvaine in the movie StarDust explains love,
"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn’t true. I know a lot about love. I’ve seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate… It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves… You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is uncontrollable. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and… What I’m trying to say, Tristan is… I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I’d know it for myself. My heart… It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it’s trying to escape because it doesn’t belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I’d wish for nothing in exchange – no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.
Love is the scariest thing in the world. Opening your heart to someone, being so vulnerable, entrusting it and hoping that it doesn't get broken. But without taking those chances the pain is worth nothing. Love shouldn't be feared or forced, but natural and real. Love is greater than any negative emotion. It helps us to forgive. It's the only way to forgive.
I have loved and have been loved.
I can tell you that love is different, every time. Very different.
For one, it was passion, trouble, and the "prefect fit"
For the other, it was friendship, understanding, and serving each other.
I loved differently.
And that may be the most wonderful thing of all about love.
It is unique.
It cannot be duplicated. It cannot be forced. Not true love.
:)
Love.
L. O. V. E.
It can not be summed up in one sentence.
Love is...
affection, adoration, passion, trouble, undeniable, insanity, madness, unpredictable, obsession, sunshine, greatest gift given, feeling of the heart that surpasses all others. It is a glance, a touch, a word. Love is eternal.
What does love do?
has power beyond this world, has power to transform, rules thought and action, ignores rational thought, burns in the heart, surpasses all other desires, neglects everything but the object of it's affection, makes 2 into 1.
Why do we love?
to feel whole, real, needed, accepted, happiness, something more powerful then ourselves. because is it an adventure, it's risky, its scary, but worth it every time.
How do we love?
We love with everything we have. Mind, body, soul. By service, kisses, compliments, gifts, dancing, singing, promises, marriage and families, forgetting ourselves. With time, walks, touches, letters, looks. We love completely.
I love how Yvaine in the movie StarDust explains love,
"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn’t true. I know a lot about love. I’ve seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate… It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves… You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is uncontrollable. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and… What I’m trying to say, Tristan is… I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I’d know it for myself. My heart… It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it’s trying to escape because it doesn’t belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I’d wish for nothing in exchange – no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.
Love is the scariest thing in the world. Opening your heart to someone, being so vulnerable, entrusting it and hoping that it doesn't get broken. But without taking those chances the pain is worth nothing. Love shouldn't be feared or forced, but natural and real. Love is greater than any negative emotion. It helps us to forgive. It's the only way to forgive.
I have loved and have been loved.
I can tell you that love is different, every time. Very different.
For one, it was passion, trouble, and the "prefect fit"
For the other, it was friendship, understanding, and serving each other.
I loved differently.
And that may be the most wonderful thing of all about love.
It is unique.
It cannot be duplicated. It cannot be forced. Not true love.
:)
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
4. What I Ate Today
I know this is a day late but I didn't get to bed until 4:30 this morning, besides I had to wait for the whole day to be done so I could tell you everything that I ate.
a couple of lemon head
A Special K bar
Wendy's #1 - Hamburger, small fries (that i shared with emma), and a small Dr. Pepper
Regular Cookie Dough Shake from Wendy's (split with Gray)
a few chips with bean dip.
half a symphony candy bar
A midnight milky way
I am super healthy. :)
a couple of lemon head
A Special K bar
Wendy's #1 - Hamburger, small fries (that i shared with emma), and a small Dr. Pepper
Regular Cookie Dough Shake from Wendy's (split with Gray)
a few chips with bean dip.
half a symphony candy bar
A midnight milky way
I am super healthy. :)
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
3. My Parents.
My parents.
They are fabulous.
This is my Mom and Dad. They are a good looking couple. Hard to believe they are 50 right? But what to say about that...
My parents met in 3rd grade and from then on it was love... Okay not really. My dad was moved to a seat next to my mom because he kept talking to his friends. The story goes that my dad did not notice my mom until they were in high school. My mom says that my dad was popular with the girls. (I wish I had a picture of them when they were younger. lol) I'm not really sure how they started dating only that some girl was mad at my dad and told my mom that she could have him. I guess she took the girl seriously and they were married right after high school.
My dad was not a member of the LDS church at that point and he did not join until a few years later when my mom put her little black bikini away. They were then sealed for eternity in the Temple. They went on to have 9 beautiful children and are currently working on building their family with grandchildren.
If you ask my dad when their first kiss was he will say Tuesday. Ask him when he first went on a date with mom he'll say tuesday. If you ask him when he knew that he loved her he'll say Tuesday. Tuesdays are a special day for my father.
MY DAD
He is one amazing fella.
He is such a wonderful example of service and faith.
He LOVES nascar. (we used to do a fantasy nascar every sunday)
he loves to go camping and show off all his awesome skills with a dutch oven. and let me tell you, he is good with that dutchoven.
He loves facebook and new technology. it's funny to watch him text or play games on his itouch.
he is amazing with cars. Actually he is amazing with anything. He's mr. fix it.
Is one of the most creative men that i know. He comes up with the most ridiculous stories and songs. I love that about him.
He loves to ride his 3-wheeler in the dunes.
Has a Ham radio and uses it alot.
He is a really good cook.
Has been getting thoughout the years at saying I love you to the kids. But really even though he doesn't always say it I know that he loves me because he lets me hold his hand and sit on his lap, even though I am 21 years old. He calls me on my birthday and sings me happy birthday. And he is always there for me when I need him.
MY MOM
She is such a wonderful example of service. She doesn't only serve her family but everyone else that seems to need help.
She loves geneology. (there she goes with the serving thing)
She is someone that I can go to for advice about boys.
She is a talentes seamstress.
She is super good at scrapbooking.
Her favorite ice cream is butter peacan
She loves to drive. and I mean she LOVES to drive.
She like to sit in the car outside the house during lightning storms
She had 5 of her children at home.
Loves rootbeer.
Has the most beautiful eyes and was super selfish for not sharing them with any of her children.
Is a great grandma.
She is allergic to metal but just got her ears pierced last year with my youngest sister.
I love my parents with all my heart and am super grateful that I am sealed to them for time and all eternity. They are a wonderful example of a loving relationship. They find new things to get into (like ham radio) to always have new things to talk to. They are fantastic parents and have taught their children how to be a hard worker and to serve those around you. As I have become old I have learned to come to them for advice. They know what's up yo :)I love them.
They are fabulous.
This is my Mom and Dad. They are a good looking couple. Hard to believe they are 50 right? But what to say about that...
My parents met in 3rd grade and from then on it was love... Okay not really. My dad was moved to a seat next to my mom because he kept talking to his friends. The story goes that my dad did not notice my mom until they were in high school. My mom says that my dad was popular with the girls. (I wish I had a picture of them when they were younger. lol) I'm not really sure how they started dating only that some girl was mad at my dad and told my mom that she could have him. I guess she took the girl seriously and they were married right after high school.
My dad was not a member of the LDS church at that point and he did not join until a few years later when my mom put her little black bikini away. They were then sealed for eternity in the Temple. They went on to have 9 beautiful children and are currently working on building their family with grandchildren.
If you ask my dad when their first kiss was he will say Tuesday. Ask him when he first went on a date with mom he'll say tuesday. If you ask him when he knew that he loved her he'll say Tuesday. Tuesdays are a special day for my father.
MY DAD
He is one amazing fella.
He is such a wonderful example of service and faith.
He LOVES nascar. (we used to do a fantasy nascar every sunday)
he loves to go camping and show off all his awesome skills with a dutch oven. and let me tell you, he is good with that dutchoven.
He loves facebook and new technology. it's funny to watch him text or play games on his itouch.
he is amazing with cars. Actually he is amazing with anything. He's mr. fix it.
Is one of the most creative men that i know. He comes up with the most ridiculous stories and songs. I love that about him.
He loves to ride his 3-wheeler in the dunes.
Has a Ham radio and uses it alot.
He is a really good cook.
Has been getting thoughout the years at saying I love you to the kids. But really even though he doesn't always say it I know that he loves me because he lets me hold his hand and sit on his lap, even though I am 21 years old. He calls me on my birthday and sings me happy birthday. And he is always there for me when I need him.
MY MOM
She is such a wonderful example of service. She doesn't only serve her family but everyone else that seems to need help.
She loves geneology. (there she goes with the serving thing)
She is someone that I can go to for advice about boys.
She is a talentes seamstress.
She is super good at scrapbooking.
Her favorite ice cream is butter peacan
She loves to drive. and I mean she LOVES to drive.
She like to sit in the car outside the house during lightning storms
She had 5 of her children at home.
Loves rootbeer.
Has the most beautiful eyes and was super selfish for not sharing them with any of her children.
Is a great grandma.
She is allergic to metal but just got her ears pierced last year with my youngest sister.
I love my parents with all my heart and am super grateful that I am sealed to them for time and all eternity. They are a wonderful example of a loving relationship. They find new things to get into (like ham radio) to always have new things to talk to. They are fantastic parents and have taught their children how to be a hard worker and to serve those around you. As I have become old I have learned to come to them for advice. They know what's up yo :)I love them.
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